State of Change

Where I am, what I am, who I am. These are things that I thought I knew. Events of the last years have we wondering more than ever. I have been striving to have a life free from the trappings of my mind. Free to be what it wants and be the best at it. Now I feel I have passed a tipping point. Maybe not THE tipping point but one that has given me a freedom I only dreamed of in years past and falsely thought I had achieved through previous actions. I understand now what I have known for years but fought against. In life there is no finish line, unless you count death and I'm a maybe on that right now, there is only perpetual motion. Salmon must swim upstream but I have a choice and I have beeen exercising that choice. One day I woke up and felt different than I ever have before.  Like somebody flipped switch I didn't even know was there. There isn't one thing I can point to but a series of action that have created momentum for change. It has not been easy and sometimes it has been downright painful.  I was so busy being upset that my life didn't turn out the way I wanted that I wasn't living the life I actually have.