Remember When

As I searched through emails today making sure I remembered my friends correct birthday I found several emails that we wrote to each other through the years and especially after she moved and then I moved. Keeping in touch with some of my friends seemed easier when I was removed from the comfort of home and needed a touchstone to stem the loneliness I felt from really being away from home for the first time. Now that I live in Milwaukee again, back in my comfort zone, I find I am not as good at keeping in touch with people. Without someone familiar to see everyday and with more time alone I reach out to others much more effectively and I even wrote letters, yes actual hand written notes that the postal service would deliver to the individual based on their physical address, to people as I didn't have a way to make long distance calls for a while. When I was lonely I found ways to connect with my friends and family and now that I have a community again I am not as likely to reach out to those I haven't had contact with in a while. I feel like I don't make time to reach out to others and some part of me feels like I don't have the time, or at least the right time(meaning actual time of day) with my work schedule and the things I do in my free time and even things like cleaning my room that I don't make time for these days. All that is just one giant bullshit excuse of course since how we prioritize our time determines what we accomplish. At least I found time to write today.