Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Days go by

All the days seem to run together lately and I find myself a little lost in my life right now, almost out of control. I just got interrupted by a phone call where I explained how that now with a girlfriend to spend all my time with I worry about what I am forgetting and what I am ignoring in my life. My time has been all my own, except for work, for so many years that I never had to prioritize it. Right now I can't even figure out what I am forgetting or ignoring since I am not taking the time to reflect that I once did. I have a very active social life and that used to be the only time I had people to spend time with before my new relationship. Now my social life and my relationship leave little time for my time or as I used to call it quiet time. Time to think, be, do nothing interact with nothing save maybe the tv, which is hardly interaction, read anything and everything on the internet I could find. I don't feel that I am giving up an amazing existence to have my relationship but I want to find a way to balance the rest of my life also.
Today my girlfriend started her new semester of college so I expect she will have less time to spend with me which in turn will give me more time to spend with myself. The fact that I met her right before the holidays and in between semesters of school meant less demands on her own time and more time with me. Given my propensity for throwing myself into things it does not surprise me that I find myself in this situation and I hope it doesn't seem like I am complaining because I am just attempting to understand something I have never experienced before in my post adolescent post college the most adult my life have ever been life.

2 comments:

shelli said...

Balance is a very delicate thing. Very difficult to attain. I think we all understand where you're coming from.

Tania said...

I love this post.