More and More

As I grow more comfortable at my new job I find my life is settling down somewhat. My old job was much more stressful and much less rewarding in small ways like feeling appreciated by your superiors and co-workers. Having worked at The Social for over a year before starting my new job at Wildflour Bakery I forgot that you could enjoy your job a lot more than I was finding myself able to do. This has spilled over into the rest of my life and I am able to feel more positive and relaxed about doing other things which is a dumb way of saying that I feel more active since my job isn't draining me with constant mental strain. More confidence and much clearer thinking are two results that spring to mind as I write this post. I am a little worried about supporting myself in the same way I was able to at my other job but until I get my first paycheck I won't really know. I have also been having more positive social interaction lately and even flirted with a girl at a bar. It seems like forever since I have done something like that. What life will bring me still scares me somewhat as I feel another transition coming soon but my ability to think positively about my future is increasing as is my energy level. Not feeling run down is great. One of the best things I have done lately is I have started gaming again with my friend Vesa and my roommates, and we were joined by more mutual friends last week but I am not sure if they will have continued regular involvement. The stupid holidays are coming up which always throws a wrench in life regularity and rhythm. At least I have this blog where I can toss my thoughts out into the abyss and clean the clutter out of my brain.