waondering

the title is not a typo but rather a combination word when I couldnt decide whether I am wandering or wondering and trying to find a difference between the two. Reading vesa has once again gotten the juices flowing in the psyche of my mind even if my vocabulary is lacking. Words words words I find words and speech and thought so frustrating as I am unable to conceive certain things in a more tangible manner and unable to control my word thoughts and unable to express them to my sastisfaction. What is the point anyways since most of the time we think we are communicating or attempt to do so we are really having a conversation within ourselves in the context of "I" and the others who we communicate at are sounding boards to make our thought our min d alive somehow instead of dying in our minds/brains like a hard drive being overwritten. Deal with that.