My last post was on March 11th 2009. It seems almost impossible but then I remember I didn't post for a year when I was to depressed to write. That is not the case now in fact it is hard to believe that everything has gone so well. My excuse is plain and simple fatigue. I have been to tired to write. Too tired to make the mental effort to form words and then use those words to form sentences, at least anything that I would consider worth reading. Anytime I found myself with time to write I could not bring myself to even pretend I would write.
A regular customer came in today earlier than usual and started telling me about his day and one of things he said 'it's good day to reflect'. That is something I made more time for these days and part of the reason I have not posted in months. I find most of my post are reflections of recent events and thoughts in which a pattern exists. When the pattern is discovered I write. I don't enjoy writing about my daily activities or working too hard to find a subject about which to write. I want the words to flow out of me for if I pause too long the moment is gone and I find myself lost and will not post an entry that has no importance to me. The lack of reflection and my propensity to get lost in time and lose touch gets in my way when it comes to maintenance, whether it's my blog my health my laundry or any project that I started but never really started and certainly never finished. Once again I make an effort to write and just like anything we will see how long it lasts.
