Progression

Here I am three weeks into a new relationship perhaps a little dazed and confused but enjoying it nonetheless. For me, and I think for her, neither of us were looking for a relationship and yet here we are. We somehow found each other and at a bar no less where I had given up trying to find any meaningful relationships based on past experience and alcohol's involvement in those experiences. Time has really flown by since I started dating her and I am still not bored, not even a little. I guess after not having someone to be intimate and close with for what seems a very long time the change is welcome. Yesterday we spent the entire day doing absolutely nothing and just laying in bed being lazy on a Sunday after a night where we both had too much to drink so the rest was needed. I am really good with people and getting along with them almost no matter what in most social and work situations that I have to be careful that I don't misread my ease with seeming familiar incorrectly because I am very good at telling people, especially ones I don't know that well, what I think they want to hear and I am so happy that I have had no inclination to do that thus far with her. Faced with telling her the truth of exactly what I am thinking when faced with a question I perhaps would rather not answer I find myself telling her exactly how I feel regardless of what I am predicting her reaction to be to what I say. This may not be news to some of my readers, I do have readers right?, but I am a people pleaser and have to fight the urge to speak my mind sometimes since I fear angering others by telling the truth in certain situations. It feels really good not to dodge or ignore what is happening and not be afraid to share what I am not matter what. I could probably sit here and write about this restating the obvious in different creative ways but I feel I have said what I set out to say. See you next time....