Hollywood Nights

If any event deserves the expression "you had to be there" this is it. Here is my story.

Typical evening out and we are making our way to the last stop of the evening, a karaoke bar on Sunset. After greeting some familiar faces, having a smoke and a beer, it is brought to my attention that certain celebrities are in attendance. Justin Long star of the movie Waiting is present drinking with some of his friends. Another person catches my eye and as my brain clicks away the answer is proposed to me. Part of the entourage is one of the "stoners" from Super Troopers , Joey Kern. "Last Call!". Drinks are finished as the lights are up and everyone is exiting. Once outside no attempt is made to call attention to the celebrities now whooping it up in front of the bar. Departure is eminent and upon entering the car I instruct the driver to slowly pass the entrance of the establishment where the celebs are still congregating. As we roll past them with the window down I shout dialogue from Super Troopers delivered by Joey Kern- "He's already pulled over he can't pull over any farther." A rush of adrenaline surges through my body as I revel in my triumph. Others in the car are rather shocked by my outburst and only the driver fully comprehends the exhilaration I feel. During the drive home I relive the moment over and over again. Once home I try to capture in writing what transpired while the events are fresh in my mind. The rush begins to fade and sleep must come. Just another night in the "City of Angels".

ONE MAN ONE WORLD IN A WORLD GONE MAD

Whatever Happened To...

Good ideas are in short supply these days. Diversity amongst ideas are rarer still. Everyone has an opinion and people feel their opinions are unique for the most part as we are all individuals. One of the tv shows I like watching is "Real Time with Bill Maher" on HBO. I enjoy the discussion of topics and the exposure to information. As talk shows go this is one of the more enjoyable ones as there are no commercials you can swear and there seems to be less of an agenda. Tonight on the last show of the season I found the panel of guests particularly entertaining consisting of Richard Dreyfuss, some journalist, some artist/activist, Dan Rather, and Norman Lear. Civics was the main focus and they talked about teaching people what our country is and how it works. How we no longer participate in the running of our country and we are mostly distracted by catch phrase politics and whatever else is the flavor of the day in news. When did we forget that representation does not mean let someone run the country while we go about our lives and that it takes actual responsibility to effect change. Although I may not be in a postition to criticize it seems that our country reflects what we are or have become. There may be no hope for utopia but there is hope for another iteration of of our lives. Priority seems to be a source of the trouble we see everyday we are alive. We are all trying to win a race that never ends. By worker better, faster, stronger, we don't win anything. This isn't a gameshow where you recieve lovely parting gifts or a grand prize, although I am tempted to trade it all for what is in that tiny box. Complication of government, religion, and politics make my head spin at times when I try to imagine the start to a resonable soultion to the problems these and other institutions have caused. Is my life a mess because of the world or is the world a mess because of my life. YES. I mentioned in the previous post a passage that I read. The closing of it seems to fit well here and it is one of the things most on my mind. "We have to accept personal responsibility for uplifting our own lives".

FREEDOM!!!!!!

Thank you VesaV. Thank you for being the ispiration for my trasformation for the phoenix to the flame. "A great deal of chaos in the world occurs because people don't appreciate themselves." said a wise man, a man wiser than myself. I have had it all along and known it all along. The passage of which I speak of is from Shambala. Most of you know Shambala from a song by "Three Dog Night". For me it is a reawakening of my spirit to the person I once was an forever shall be! The words expresed made me realize that no matter what I think I must trust in what I know. I must appreciate the thing that I am. I am reborn a man with conviction and purpose. I am he who is called "I am".

M! GO BLUE!

Everything I know about sports started with this game. Its the biggest game of the year in college football. In case you have been oblivious to college sports in your lifetime every year two teams in college football play their last game of the season against each other every year. There are many great rivalries in sports but few have the magnitude of Michigan vs Ohio State. ESPN et all will tell you "this year is different", "this year means more", "this is your national chamionship". For fans of this game the fact that Ohio State is #1 and Michigan is #2 matters and they care, but it doesn't make any difference. If both teams lose every game all season as long as they win this game it was a success. This game can't get any bigger.

A Week of Mondays

Reading Vesa's blog which revolves around the idea of "Monday" helped put into focus the way I have been feeling for the last couple of weeks. Failure to get the job for which I interviewed and already slipping into malaise I have been feeling like everyday of my life is like the first day of school and you don't want to go. Once you get older you can decide for yourself and crawl back into bed. Staying up later and getting up even later has turned my world into a very strange place where every day and week are the same. Feelings do nothing but destroy my will. Motivation to live a life of and on my own gives me regret and regret makes me angry. Willingness to control my emotions and the choices I make eludes me and confounds me as I continue to act in a manner contrary to peace of mind. The later it gets to the next day the more I dread it and when the morning comes distraction takes me to 5 o' clock and pretty soon the day is done along with the week and month. Perhaps I have invented some sort of sadistic time machine where time moves forward but repeats the actions of the past. I think they call that insanity.

Elvis Has Left The Building

I'm back ladies and gentlemen. I here till Thursday don't forget the 12 o' clock show is completely different than the 8 o' clock show. When you are on the floor never gamble more than you can afford and always tip your waitstaff generously.

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No Man's Land

What is it with me and seriously depressing posts? I don't know. But I find myself in the middle of nowhere but somewhere at the same time. The job I was hoping for doesn't seem to be coming to fruition. In the search for a life I am here in L.A. or Hollywood as I like to call it. My only happiness is found in a cigarette or a bottle of some kind of alcohol. Here I am, stuck in the middle with you. Steelers Wheel baby and nothing to do and nowhere to go. Thanksgiving coming up and Denver, CO in the horizon. What to do but finish my drink, smoke the butt of another cig and pray to god as I distract myself from life itself. At least Louisville lost and my fantasy football hopes are still alive. I certainly don't resemble anything alive at this point. Could I be more melancholy, perhaps but it would take more effort than I am prepared to offer. Good night and good luck.

"I'm gonna make him an offer he can't refuse."

Been a while since my last post and Holloween has come and gone and for the first year I didn't dress up or go to any parties. My roommate went to Vegas for the weekend so I was home alone. I spent my time playing the awesome game Godfather and finished it in 41:45:39 and became Don of NYC baby. I am sorry the game is over but glad in a way because it means I can stop playing it. It it what the kids call video crack and you don't even need a pipe to smoke it. On a more serious note I finally! have a job interview at Bubba Gump Shrimp restaurant tomorrow and hopefully my long job search will come to an end very soon. Other than that not much going on but the same old goings on.